back to the classroom

note to self: i've got to be kinder to myself. i have to learn to forgive myself for the mistakes i've made and for those i will be making. i should stop berating myself for not knowing any better and nursing regrets about the things i should've done instead of what i did. but most importantly, i should stop being too cautious and afraid to commit mistakes.
i have to learn to accept myself fancy trimmings, uneven wrappers and loose threads included. i could always be better - write the poems i've always wanted to write, love with the restraint and patience that i've seen others exercise in their relationships, maybe even be a better friend, daughter, sister, but still be me. i have to stop comparing myself with other people and wishing for some other life, a second chance. my faults are no reason for shame, my mistakes no cause for regret.
as i have been reminded, what matters is this moment and what i choose to do with it.maybe in time i will learn how to spend my moments better.but for now, i bask in it the best way i can and know how.i hope that is enough.
i have to remember to be patient with myself if i am slow to learn all the lessons i'm suppose to know or achieve all the goals i've set out.it will come eventually, i have to believe that.